Cutting things out
Today is my first day cutting several things out of my life. I give myself a C for the day. I have cut out: Meat, Soda, and Cigarettes. I am at the point where I am ready for big changes. The soda and the nicotine are both bad things that needed to go. As far as the meat is concerned, I was just ready for a change.
The reason I am giving myself a C is because I was so tired that this afternoon I caved and had about half of a diet coke and a cigarette. All the diet coke did was make me feel bloated. It didn’t wake me up at all. As for the evil cigarette, it just tasted bad and made me feel SUPER guilty.
The food has been good today so far - for the most part. I did snack too much this afternoon because I thought I hadn’t eaten enough. Silly me… Now I am already at like 900 kcal and I haven’t had dinner yet. Not sure what I’ll do for dinner, but meat may be involved as 1) we have meat that needs to be cooked and I’m not willing to throw it out, and 2) I still need to figure out cooking meat for Eric but not me.
I’m going to become vegetarian again. And this time I’m going to do it the right way (aka without junk food or tons of processed food). I’ve had two migraines in the past week, most likely heat-induced, but I need to eliminate the crap. Not that meat is crap, but I’m ready for a change.
I’m cutting out the meat, and the diet soda, and the cigarettes once and for all! For me, it’s a slippery slope with the diet soda. Even though I’ve been drinking diet coke with splenda (as oppposed to aspartame), its still chemicals I don’t need in my body. Before I know it, I’m drinking 6 in a day! Cigarettes, on the other hand, now that’s something I’ve been battling for 18 years now. I’m getting ready to be 33, and I’m thinking about starting a family in the next couple years. Smoking NEEDS to go!
I should be more specific. I was technically a pescitarian before, still sometimes eating seafood. This time, I’m going straight veg. I’m going to stay away from processed foods and eat whole natural foods.
My new lifestyle is going to be a transition over the next week… We just went grocery shopping a few days ago, and we still have meat in the house that I’m just not willing to throw away. We are poor and can’t afford to do that!
Eric even said he would go meatless a couple of nights a week! Other nights, I can just make chicken to go with meals for him. He’s such a great sport and he loves me a whole bunch! I’m one lucky girl!
Made a beautiful veggie omelet for a snack today. I’ve been nauseous all day and feeling sick, but this was good!
I found out today that I got the job at Dental Depot!! I’ll be working there 8-4 every Saturday and making decent moolah!! I really liked the office and really think it will be a good fit!
I’m concentrating on staying healthy, having peace, being happy, remembering what is important, taking in nature and animals, spending time reading, trying to understand the universe, where science and the spiritual meet.
I am SO ready for school to start!
I miss having routine and structure every day. I miss having something to do during the day and seeing my friends. I miss the sense of accomplishment in my life.
3 more weeks until classes start and I cannot wait! It’s my senior year and I have a VERY heavy course load and 2 jobs, so I’m sure I’ll be complaining about having no time before too long. I will need to look back at this post and remember how unbelievably bored I get when I don’t have something to do every day.